From Fox News
The parents of Kayla Mueller, just released the last letter received from their daughter:
Everyone, If you are receiving this letter it means I am still
detained but my cell mates (starting from 11/2/2014) have been released.
I have asked them to contact you + send you this letter. It’s hard to
know what to say. Please know that I am in a safe location, completely
unharmed + healthy (put on weight in fact); I have been treated w/ the
utmost respect + kindness.
I wanted to write you all a well thought out letter (but I didn’t
know if my cell mates would be leaving in the coming days or the coming
months restricting my time but primarily) I could only but write the
letter a paragraph at a time, just the thought of you all sends me into a
fit of tears.
If you could say I have “suffered” at all throughout this whole
experience it is only in knowing how much suffering I have put you all
through; I will never ask you to forgive me as I do not deserve
forgiveness.
I remember mom always telling me that all in all in the end the only
one you really have is God. I have come to a place in experience where,
in every sense of the word, I have surrendered myself to our creator b/c
literally there was no else…. + by God + by your prayers I have felt
tenderly cradled in freefall.
I have been shown in darkness, light + have learned that even in
prison, one can be free. I am grateful. I have come to see that there is
good in every situation, sometimes we just have to look for it. I pray
each each day that if nothing else, you have felt a certain closeness +
surrender to God as well + have formed a bond of love + support amongst
one another…
I miss you all as if it has been a decade of forced separation. I
have had many a long hour to think, to think of all the things I will do
w/ Lex, our first family camping trip, the first meeting @ the airport.
I have had many hours to think how only in your absence have I finally @
25 years old come to realize your place in my life. The gift that is
each one of you + the person I could + could not be if you were not a
part of my life, my family, my support.
I DO NOT want the negotiations for my release to be your duty, if
there is any other option take it, even if it takes more time. This
should never have become your burden. I have asked these women to
support you; please seek their advice. If you have not done so already,
[redacted] can contact [redacted] who may have a certain level of
experience with these people.
None of us could have known it would be this long but know I am also
fighting from my side in the ways I am able + I have a lot of fight left
inside of me. I am not breaking down + I will not give in no matter how
long it takes. I wrote a song some months ago that says, “The part of
me that pains the most also gets me out of bed, w/out your hope there
would be nothing left…” aka- The thought of your pain is the source of
my own, simultaneously the hope of our reunion is the source of my
strength.
Please be patient, give your pain to God. I know you would want me to
remain strong. That is exactly what I am doing. Do not fear for me,
continue to pray as will I + by God’s will we will be together soon.
All my everything, Kayla